My parents should be here in...approximately seven hours. Give or take half an hour or so because planes are always late.
I'm starting to get excited. Supper's already cooking, because no one will want to make anything when suppertime actually comes around, so I threw a bunch of stuff in the slowcooker and turned it on.
WAH! *flails*
I'm starting to get excited. Supper's already cooking, because no one will want to make anything when suppertime actually comes around, so I threw a bunch of stuff in the slowcooker and turned it on.
WAH! *flails*
Important things
Dec. 10th, 2007 08:39 pmI can't deal with more than point form right now.
1. I am alive and will continue to be so.
2. I have a final tomorrow that I've barely studied for.
3. My brother came home last Friday.
4. My parents are coming home on Thursday.
5. Dom is very ill, and doesn't like my brother.
6. I haven't started buying Christmas and/or birthday presents yet.
7. My brother is slowly turning out to be like my mother...aka completely anal and nags a lot.
8. Fake Mustache was awesome, and we got a ride home.
1. I am alive and will continue to be so.
2. I have a final tomorrow that I've barely studied for.
3. My brother came home last Friday.
4. My parents are coming home on Thursday.
5. Dom is very ill, and doesn't like my brother.
6. I haven't started buying Christmas and/or birthday presents yet.
7. My brother is slowly turning out to be like my mother...aka completely anal and nags a lot.
8. Fake Mustache was awesome, and we got a ride home.
conversation
Nov. 22nd, 2007 01:40 pmTalked to my parents today. Like, Talk with a capital T. I needed to ask them if Dom could stay here longer until he gets back on his feet, and just tell them more about Dom's situation so they actually know what's going on. No clear answers as of yet, considering how big a decision this is. Dad actually used male pronouns while talking about him. w00t. I totally didn't expect that. I feel like they understand now, and that's a good thing. Like whoa.
Also managed to talk a bit about my trans-ness. Just reiterating how I came out to myself, and Mom was all like 'we don't really understand this, and it's really new,' but I get the feeling they're trying really hard anyway and that fucking rocks. I feel really lucky, and grateful, to have the parents that I do. Despite the complete and utter Christianity and the differences we have. I've sort of reconciled with that anyway. I know that's just who they are, and I can't ask them to change just because they annoy me sometimes.
Also managed to talk a bit about my trans-ness. Just reiterating how I came out to myself, and Mom was all like 'we don't really understand this, and it's really new,' but I get the feeling they're trying really hard anyway and that fucking rocks. I feel really lucky, and grateful, to have the parents that I do. Despite the complete and utter Christianity and the differences we have. I've sort of reconciled with that anyway. I know that's just who they are, and I can't ask them to change just because they annoy me sometimes.
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corvidae.
Individual Attributes
In other news, my MP3 player is working again and Mom got her Indian status. I've forms to fill out to become a member of my tribe, which hopefully won't take that long. And yes, financial support is good. If they send money I'll have less things to worry about.
corvidae.Individual Attributes
- i1) Achievement attitudes: Conflicting responses: ambitious, persistent, reactive. You are also goal-oriented, compulsive, determined, resilient.
- i2) Emotional temperament: Conflicting responses: apprehensive, nervous, panicky, unstable. You are also hyperactive, impatient, insecure, lively, cheerful, content, silent, high-strung.
- i3) Energy level: Conflicting responses: energetic, passive.
- i4) Intellectual factors: alert, attentive, imaginative, inquisitive, intellectual, intelligent, studious, talented. You are also observant, perceptive, creative, intuitive.
- i5) Material attitudes: Conflicting responses: spiritual. You are also poor, a hoarder, thrifty.
- i6) Maturity: Conflicting responses: knowledgeable, resourceful. You are also educated, naive, immature.
- i7) Philosophical attitudes: flexible, introspective. You are also optimistic.
- i8) Physical attributes: Conflicting responses: weak. You are also sleepy, physical.
- i9) Risk attitudes: careful, cautious, fortunate.
- i10) Task performance attitudes: adaptable, habitual, hard-working, indecisive, methodical, meticulous, systematic. You are also organized, prompt, punctual, reflective, skillful, a planner.
Social Attributes
- s1) Aggressiveness: kind, peaceful. You are also courteous, friendly, thoughtful.
- s2) Control attitudes: diplomatic, gentle. You are also conciliatory, lax, manipulative, masochistic.
- s3) Dependability: Conflicting responses. truthful. You are also insincere, loyal, mistrustful, obedient, responsible, supportive, trusting, dependable.
- s4) Egocentrism: Conflicting responses. modest, sensitive, sympathetic. You are also forgiving, humble, caring, romantic, compassionate, stingy, demanding.
- s5) Emotional expression: Conflicting responses. affectionate, appealing, congenial, quiet, secretive. You are also inhibited, loving, private, funny, restrained, humorous, self-conscious, timid.
- s6) Fairness: appreciative, considerate, discreet, open-minded, respectful.
- s7) Leadership attributes: Conflicting responses. a follower, fearful, protective, successful. You are also helpful, entrepreneurial, convincing.
- s8) Physical appearance: stylish, neat. You are also attractive, of average looks.
- s9) Regard for Rules: Unknown. Conflicting responses.
- s10) Team Spirit: an individualist, political. You are also family-oriented, an anarchist.
In other news, my MP3 player is working again and Mom got her Indian status. I've forms to fill out to become a member of my tribe, which hopefully won't take that long. And yes, financial support is good. If they send money I'll have less things to worry about.
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Aug. 14th, 2007 04:35 pmSo Mom and Dad left today on a grand camping adventure, which means I'm home alone for four days. Now I can look at porn practice for FM without needing to explain why I'm playing the same song 10 times in a row. Whoo! Working for the next three days, but at least I managed to get the weekend off for Con, other than working Friday afternoon. Must come up with a way to get me and my stuff to Con after that. Anyone want to give me a ride? I almost want to start packing my stuff for Con already. It's insane. So excited! XD
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Jul. 27th, 2007 06:29 pmTwo things of importance have happened over the past couple days.
1. My dad's come home from Saudi to stay for a month or so.
2. My name change certificate came in the mail today. :D So now I'm going to be running around like crazy to change my name on random stuff. But yay!
1. My dad's come home from Saudi to stay for a month or so.
2. My name change certificate came in the mail today. :D So now I'm going to be running around like crazy to change my name on random stuff. But yay!
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Jul. 21st, 2007 11:47 amSo last night I went to Diagon Alley to hang with friends and girlfriend in costume to celebrate the release of the final HP. Well, this was after the barbeque thing I had with family friends. Sitting around outside talking religion and Middle East and/or African politics. And it's weird, but it's almost like being in a different culture when I'm hanging out with a bunch of Christians. Sitting there hearing them call me my old name and feeling their expectations on me, and by the end of it sort of going, well maybe I could be who they want me to be. Maybe maybe. Until I remember that I really, really just can't. And not being comfortable until I can go home and change.
Anyway, Harry Potter. Haven't read it yet. Don't spoil unless I ask, plzkthnx. But there was a street festival last night and after I'd gotten home from the barbeque and changed, I caught a bus dispite the overwhelming unhelpfullness that is teleride/the CT website, and went downtown. I found Lacy and co. almost immediately. It was amazing, considering the amount of people that were there. The chances must have been a million to one or something. Found Caro eventually and we shoved our way through crowds, looking at people's costumes and going on a grand quest to find Tracy a washroom. woot. And there were acrobats and it was cool. We stayed till about midnight, when people started cheering and buying books and all that craziness. Then we left. I don't have a book, nor have I ordered one. I'm planning on getting one next week or so, after the insanity has died down slightly, or maybe just borrow it from someone. Not actually that much of a fan, so I don't really care. And everyone there used the right name and it was fabulous.
Anyway, Harry Potter. Haven't read it yet. Don't spoil unless I ask, plzkthnx. But there was a street festival last night and after I'd gotten home from the barbeque and changed, I caught a bus dispite the overwhelming unhelpfullness that is teleride/the CT website, and went downtown. I found Lacy and co. almost immediately. It was amazing, considering the amount of people that were there. The chances must have been a million to one or something. Found Caro eventually and we shoved our way through crowds, looking at people's costumes and going on a grand quest to find Tracy a washroom. woot. And there were acrobats and it was cool. We stayed till about midnight, when people started cheering and buying books and all that craziness. Then we left. I don't have a book, nor have I ordered one. I'm planning on getting one next week or so, after the insanity has died down slightly, or maybe just borrow it from someone. Not actually that much of a fan, so I don't really care. And everyone there used the right name and it was fabulous.
( And a rant )
My computer is stupid and freezes all the time. Mom doesn't understand me, which sounds all emo teenager-ish, but is actually true. I don't know where I fit in this puzzle-piece world anymore. Labels are stupid. I'm sort of envious of Mom to have the world figured out in neat boxes, but how lame, how boring, how unrealistic. Today I went to the registry to sign my name change form. Soon I'll be Jasper Dion instead of what I was before. Not that I know what that was. Personalities are just a bunch of words floating around an indescribable abstract of 'this is who I am' except I've lost that, somewhere along this process of finding myself. All I know is I miss singing and that I like drag. Maybe they'll be clues that will solve the mystery. I don't want to be who I was, but I hate the awkward and the in-between. I hate the descrepancy between my name and my presentation and why the hell do employers need to know M or F anyway? I need a job. Soon I'll be paying for my own schooling and that scares me. I want to move out but know I can't.
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Jul. 2nd, 2007 08:47 pmI had this whole rant about how Mom wants me to grow out my hair for my cousin's wedding so I don't *gasp* look like a boy in the wedding pictures. I'm not angry anymore, however (thank you, Arrogant Worms), so I'm not going to. (I'm not wearing a suit, Mom, be grateful).
Today I sat outside in Caro's yard, ate strawberries, got drunk and played truth or dare. All with either the Spice Girls or Cher playing in the background.
Parents are annoying.
Today I sat outside in Caro's yard, ate strawberries, got drunk and played truth or dare. All with either the Spice Girls or Cher playing in the background.
Parents are annoying.
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Jun. 25th, 2007 09:34 pmSo I woke up this morning and felt like crap. Spent the next few hours alternating between sleeping, getting hot baths and drinking my bodyweight in tea. Mmm....tea...
And then when I was feeling a bit better and sitting in Mom's room chatting about nothing she out of nowhere asks me who my girlfriend is. So I tell her. And we have this talk about...I don't know, how I feel and how she feels. None of it particularly surprising to me. She thinks it's some sort of phase or that it's 'natural for girls to feel close (I think that was the word? Or maybe it was something about bonding) to their best friend.' And I was like, uh huh. Not like this. But I didn't try to explain. I was crying enough as it was. And there was shit about the Bible and how God didn't create men to sleep with men and women to sleep with women. Like I said, nothing particularly surprising. Oh, other than the fact that my brother apparently now knows because my parents told him. I'm not actually mad, but...damn. It wasn't theirs to tell. Oh well. Now I'm out to just about everyone.
I registered for classes, too. Hurrah. Stupid drawing class is on Saturday, again, but it was the only one so I have to take it. Oh? And one of my required classes apparently likes to be on Thursday nights. Till ten. I have until the winter semester to find out if it's something I can get away with skipping once a month or no. I would be very, very sad if I had to miss FM for a whole semester.
And then when I was feeling a bit better and sitting in Mom's room chatting about nothing she out of nowhere asks me who my girlfriend is. So I tell her. And we have this talk about...I don't know, how I feel and how she feels. None of it particularly surprising to me. She thinks it's some sort of phase or that it's 'natural for girls to feel close (I think that was the word? Or maybe it was something about bonding) to their best friend.' And I was like, uh huh. Not like this. But I didn't try to explain. I was crying enough as it was. And there was shit about the Bible and how God didn't create men to sleep with men and women to sleep with women. Like I said, nothing particularly surprising. Oh, other than the fact that my brother apparently now knows because my parents told him. I'm not actually mad, but...damn. It wasn't theirs to tell. Oh well. Now I'm out to just about everyone.
I registered for classes, too. Hurrah. Stupid drawing class is on Saturday, again, but it was the only one so I have to take it. Oh? And one of my required classes apparently likes to be on Thursday nights. Till ten. I have until the winter semester to find out if it's something I can get away with skipping once a month or no. I would be very, very sad if I had to miss FM for a whole semester.
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Jun. 24th, 2007 11:03 amWell, she's here.
...
It's weird waking up to music. And also weird how I don't seem to mind that it's uber-Christian music and Mom's speaking in tongues in the other room. (Could this be *gasp* maturity?) I figure if I can list Handel's Messiah as one of my favourite pieces of music, I can put up with worship. We'll see how I feel by the end of the summer, though.
This was completely anti-climactic. Dur.
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It's weird waking up to music. And also weird how I don't seem to mind that it's uber-Christian music and Mom's speaking in tongues in the other room. (Could this be *gasp* maturity?) I figure if I can list Handel's Messiah as one of my favourite pieces of music, I can put up with worship. We'll see how I feel by the end of the summer, though.
This was completely anti-climactic. Dur.
So yesterday was Ally's 18th birthday drunken stripperfest dancing hooha whatever. We met at Ally's at six-thirty and promptly started drinking. And trying to throw grapes down Emily's shirt. Fun. Though I think Ally drew a Venus symbol ( D:) on my head in glow-in-the-blacklights hairspray, but it didn't end up showing anyway so it was fine. Probably wouldn't have looked like anything even if it had showed up. Blobbish, you know. The only thing that actually glowed was the bit that ended up getting on my pants. So I had this glowy white stuff on my inner thigh whilst at the strippers. >.o
I got pretty drunk last night. And it took three drinks and less than ten dollars because I am a cheap drunk. I spent three times the amount of money getting home in a cab, because by the end of the night I was hanging out with this chick named Kendra and another whose name I can't remember for the life of me, and everyone else had ditched. Taking their roadbikes or minivans with them. 'Course, Ally got kicked out of the club at eleven for being too drunk. And I was going to buy her a drink, but I guess I can wait until we do something like this again.
The dancing was awesome. :D
Still haven't gotten a hangover, which makes me really, really happy. Though Dad called at nine or something and left a message saying Mom was on the plane and could I be sensitive when she came and not bring up 'my situation' because she was going to be tired? He called again later and explained which made me somewhat less hurt by it all. No mention of the drunken stripperfest. At all. Though he must've known I didn't get hammered or anything because I was eating breakfast when I was talking to him.
Mom's coming home in less than five hours. I am...anxious. I haven't seen her since Christmas, and I was very much in the closet then. The house is very very clean, because if she can't be proud of me for anything else, at least I'm a good caretaker.
...
Fuck.
You know, I'd be somewhat better about all of this if it didn't end up hurting the people I care about. And as much as I can tell myself that everything would be worse if I tried not to admit anything and tore myself up from the inside, it doesn't help. At all. And saying "Gee Dad, I may be trans and planning to totally rearrange my hormones/how I look, but at least I'm not suicidal. :D" can't be that comforting to my parents either.
I got pretty drunk last night. And it took three drinks and less than ten dollars because I am a cheap drunk. I spent three times the amount of money getting home in a cab, because by the end of the night I was hanging out with this chick named Kendra and another whose name I can't remember for the life of me, and everyone else had ditched. Taking their roadbikes or minivans with them. 'Course, Ally got kicked out of the club at eleven for being too drunk. And I was going to buy her a drink, but I guess I can wait until we do something like this again.
The dancing was awesome. :D
Still haven't gotten a hangover, which makes me really, really happy. Though Dad called at nine or something and left a message saying Mom was on the plane and could I be sensitive when she came and not bring up 'my situation' because she was going to be tired? He called again later and explained which made me somewhat less hurt by it all. No mention of the drunken stripperfest. At all. Though he must've known I didn't get hammered or anything because I was eating breakfast when I was talking to him.
Mom's coming home in less than five hours. I am...anxious. I haven't seen her since Christmas, and I was very much in the closet then. The house is very very clean, because if she can't be proud of me for anything else, at least I'm a good caretaker.
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Fuck.
You know, I'd be somewhat better about all of this if it didn't end up hurting the people I care about. And as much as I can tell myself that everything would be worse if I tried not to admit anything and tore myself up from the inside, it doesn't help. At all. And saying "Gee Dad, I may be trans and planning to totally rearrange my hormones/how I look, but at least I'm not suicidal. :D" can't be that comforting to my parents either.
I have no morals. :D
Jun. 13th, 2007 11:34 amThis is why you should not friend your parents on Facebook:
"OK, what the heck is a dancing drunk stripper fest.AND why are you going? Have we not taught you any morals at all!?!!? I hope I am just reading something out of nothing."
I'm surprised he's said nothing of the 'in a relationship' part, the Gay Pride Parade pictures (with me in them), the drag kings, the pics of me and Caro with Lacy's comments of 'Dey so cuute' or anything else. Nope. Just drunken strippers. xD Damn. I should put my gender as male and see if he notices. Kind of wanted to do that anyway.
I'm not quite sure how to reply to his message, though. I mean, the truth, maybe, but in a way that he doesn't have a heart attack and die. Ideas? (What does going to a strip club have to do with morals?)
"OK, what the heck is a dancing drunk stripper fest.AND why are you going? Have we not taught you any morals at all!?!!? I hope I am just reading something out of nothing."
I'm surprised he's said nothing of the 'in a relationship' part, the Gay Pride Parade pictures (with me in them), the drag kings, the pics of me and Caro with Lacy's comments of 'Dey so cuute' or anything else. Nope. Just drunken strippers. xD Damn. I should put my gender as male and see if he notices. Kind of wanted to do that anyway.
I'm not quite sure how to reply to his message, though. I mean, the truth, maybe, but in a way that he doesn't have a heart attack and die. Ideas? (What does going to a strip club have to do with morals?)
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May. 9th, 2007 10:20 amSo, uh, my parents were actually supportive. Go figure. I mean, there was the whole 'you'll always be our daughter' thing (and slight disapproval), but I figure they might be able to get over that with time. And encouragement.
But I mean dude! I'm not disowned! And there was no questions of me losing my roommate..uh..priveledges because of this. bwah.
Gender Continuum tonight at Herland. Whoo!
But I mean dude! I'm not disowned! And there was no questions of me losing my roommate..uh..priveledges because of this. bwah.
Gender Continuum tonight at Herland. Whoo!
Coming out
May. 6th, 2007 12:38 pmI just sent the letter to my parents where I tell them almost everything. Trans-stuff and sexuality. I actually feel sort of calm right now. I wonder when they'll get it.
So...my cieday was interesting. Thal wanted us to go for a walk, but I got too lazy.:P Anyway, here's the bad water-colour that I did, though I suppose it's technically a mixed-media work. There's coloured pencils and acrylic on it as well. Wei also did a really long written down conversation that degenerated into an arguement about my parents, but I'm not going to post it.
I found a random idea that I decided to copy and make my own. It's called 101 things in 1001 days, or something like that. And you do...basically what it says. With a list of 101 things that you'd like to do and have to do in 1001 days, which is something like two and a half years. I made my list last night and this morning, and I'm starting tomorrow. I have such random stuff on there. xD Like: Buy a hat. Because I'm so not going to before March 2009! Still, it should be interesting. I'm starting on #28 and #53 tomorrow.
Also tomorrow is my Grade 9 piano exam. O.o I'm a little worried, especially on the technical aspect of it. I really should have practiced my scales more. Ah well, as long as my wrist don't start randomly hurting tomorrow (no knitting for me!), I'll be fine.
One week and a day until I'm flying out to Ontario to visit my grandparents and meet the 'rents. Craziness. Note to self: remember to hide all Wiccan books and not leave them randomly on the kitchen counter. This weekend's going to be a crazy cleaning frenzy, you just wait. Or at least, it will be if I can get my wonderful brother to do anything. *scowl* I'm planning to bribe him with fresh, home-made peanut-butter cookies, but he still seems like he wants to be lazy and not do anything! If we clean it well enough, maybe Mom won't get so bitchy and anal on us. Last time she wiped off the counters four times and I'd sanitized them and everything! *sigh*
Anyway, it's late and I should go to bed for the night. Need to get a good sleep for my exam tomorrow.
I found a random idea that I decided to copy and make my own. It's called 101 things in 1001 days, or something like that. And you do...basically what it says. With a list of 101 things that you'd like to do and have to do in 1001 days, which is something like two and a half years. I made my list last night and this morning, and I'm starting tomorrow. I have such random stuff on there. xD Like: Buy a hat. Because I'm so not going to before March 2009! Still, it should be interesting. I'm starting on #28 and #53 tomorrow.
Also tomorrow is my Grade 9 piano exam. O.o I'm a little worried, especially on the technical aspect of it. I really should have practiced my scales more. Ah well, as long as my wrist don't start randomly hurting tomorrow (no knitting for me!), I'll be fine.
One week and a day until I'm flying out to Ontario to visit my grandparents and meet the 'rents. Craziness. Note to self: remember to hide all Wiccan books and not leave them randomly on the kitchen counter. This weekend's going to be a crazy cleaning frenzy, you just wait. Or at least, it will be if I can get my wonderful brother to do anything. *scowl* I'm planning to bribe him with fresh, home-made peanut-butter cookies, but he still seems like he wants to be lazy and not do anything! If we clean it well enough, maybe Mom won't get so bitchy and anal on us. Last time she wiped off the counters four times and I'd sanitized them and everything! *sigh*
Anyway, it's late and I should go to bed for the night. Need to get a good sleep for my exam tomorrow.
Happy April!
Apr. 2nd, 2006 09:10 pmSo, apparently last weekend my parents told Ben that they're staying in Saudi for another year. Huh. And Ben's off to Hillsong to become some youth minister or something like that. I don't know what he wants to do with his life. But he's leaving in January, so that means I'm here with the house for at least six months by myself. He'll probably sell me the place. A home-owner. At nineteen. Sheesh. Thing is, when Mom and Dad talked to me on Saturday, they didn't say a thing about whether they were coming back or no. Don't you think that should be important enough to mention? Not that I don't trust my brother or anything, I just wish they could have said. They just talked about finances and the weather and other things that we usually talk about.
I finally have my learner's license now. I only could have got it since I turned fourteen. >.< I didn't really think it was worth it, though, seeing as I was leaving the country and women can't drive in the good ol' Kingdom of S.A. And plus I was lazy. :P But I have it now, and Ben bought me a cinnamon bun in celebration. I actually ate a lot of cinnamon buns this weekend.
I also finally got some new work shoes, so I can now go to work without the ever-so-handy ventilation in my shoes. XD I actually got the same exact pair that I had before. Couldn't think of a good reason to change them. And some impractical strappy two-inch monstrosities that I'll never be able to walk in. Heh. I just had the incredible urge to buy impractical shoes. I blame America's Next Top Model. Ben just shook his head when I showed up in the bookstore with two boxes of shoes instead of one, especially once I did the half-guilty smile and said: 'They were on sale.' But I mean, $15 for a pair of nice shoes. How can you resist?
I want to make shoe-related icons now.
I went over to Caro's around suppertime on Saturday. We were supposedly going to go to swing dancing, but we felt lazy, and couldn't get a ride there. So we decided to finish watching 'Army of Darkness,' which is a really old B-rated horror-ish movie, with an undead army done in shaky claymation and a fountain of blood. After that was over, they played this movie called 'Top of the Food Chain.' Interesting, ne? We thought we'd see if it was any good, and if not, we'd watch the Labyrinth again.
It was bloody amazing! I don't know how to describe it in ways that won't make it sound completely horrible, but they mixed it all together to make a completely brilliant movie. With wonderful lines like: 'that lumpy bumpy hilly part of town outside of town.' And man-eating aliens, incest, polygamy, fish, bondage, homosexuality and Jesus saving the world through the wonders of cool fusion, which somehow involved shoving a metal crucifix into a sattelite box. It was made in Canada. Somehow, that didn't really surprise me. XD
Stayed in bed until noon today. :P Darn that daylight savings.
Then Ben and I went to go see Ice Age 2 today, with our future room-mate named Chris and his fiancee named Brenda. Good movie, but there are far to many CG movies with cute animals coming out. It's starting to get kind of tiring. I do kind of want to see Over the Hedge, though. Maybe when it comes out on video.
Oh, and I randomly discovered a while ago that Thalie has white feet. o.x I don't know if it's a temporary thing or what. It's better than her randomly being gold with angel wings or something. ^_~
I finally have my learner's license now. I only could have got it since I turned fourteen. >.< I didn't really think it was worth it, though, seeing as I was leaving the country and women can't drive in the good ol' Kingdom of S.A. And plus I was lazy. :P But I have it now, and Ben bought me a cinnamon bun in celebration. I actually ate a lot of cinnamon buns this weekend.
I also finally got some new work shoes, so I can now go to work without the ever-so-handy ventilation in my shoes. XD I actually got the same exact pair that I had before. Couldn't think of a good reason to change them. And some impractical strappy two-inch monstrosities that I'll never be able to walk in. Heh. I just had the incredible urge to buy impractical shoes. I blame America's Next Top Model. Ben just shook his head when I showed up in the bookstore with two boxes of shoes instead of one, especially once I did the half-guilty smile and said: 'They were on sale.' But I mean, $15 for a pair of nice shoes. How can you resist?
I want to make shoe-related icons now.
I went over to Caro's around suppertime on Saturday. We were supposedly going to go to swing dancing, but we felt lazy, and couldn't get a ride there. So we decided to finish watching 'Army of Darkness,' which is a really old B-rated horror-ish movie, with an undead army done in shaky claymation and a fountain of blood. After that was over, they played this movie called 'Top of the Food Chain.' Interesting, ne? We thought we'd see if it was any good, and if not, we'd watch the Labyrinth again.
It was bloody amazing! I don't know how to describe it in ways that won't make it sound completely horrible, but they mixed it all together to make a completely brilliant movie. With wonderful lines like: 'that lumpy bumpy hilly part of town outside of town.' And man-eating aliens, incest, polygamy, fish, bondage, homosexuality and Jesus saving the world through the wonders of cool fusion, which somehow involved shoving a metal crucifix into a sattelite box. It was made in Canada. Somehow, that didn't really surprise me. XD
Stayed in bed until noon today. :P Darn that daylight savings.
Then Ben and I went to go see Ice Age 2 today, with our future room-mate named Chris and his fiancee named Brenda. Good movie, but there are far to many CG movies with cute animals coming out. It's starting to get kind of tiring. I do kind of want to see Over the Hedge, though. Maybe when it comes out on video.
Oh, and I randomly discovered a while ago that Thalie has white feet. o.x I don't know if it's a temporary thing or what. It's better than her randomly being gold with angel wings or something. ^_~
My parents piss the crap out of me. Only sometimes, like right now when Mom's 'confessing,' which means she's saying biblical things like she's got lots of money and that she will always be victorious over 'satan'. And when they speak in tongues. Annoying annoying annoying. You'd think i'd be used to it by now. It's so crazy.
I feel kind of left out of my family sometimes, though. They're all like together and all understanding and shit, but me? I'm the black sheep of the family. The pagan in a perfectly christian home. There are things that they don't tell me, like all the conversations they had with Ben last year that I couldn't listen to cuz it was all preaching sometimes. But ben never emailed me, so I never got news from home. And times when they close the door on me, or told me to sit in my room until they finish praying. In Riyadh, it felt like I was trapped in that corner of the flat, like it was my own special prison because I couldn't belong. I try not to think about it, but it hurts. I understand their point of view, but they will never understand mine, because it's a totally different way of thinking. If they read some of my religious works, they'd just get all 'holier-than-thou' and think it was evil. I'm not even supposed to bring pagan books in the house. They think it will bring a curse upon the house or something.
Shit.
Caro's supposed to be gone all summer too. Well, she was, but she's back now cuz she got kicked in the face by a horse. Ouch. >.< But at least I get to see her tomorrow! Canada Day! We're going to a party, while my 'rents go and praise yahweh for six hours. mmm...maybe we'll talk about sex...
I'm busy looking for a job right now. It is unbelievably boring. Especially the 'online research' part. I'd rather walk around and hand my resume out. Except, of course, that that's not a very good way of getting a job, and then I wouldn't be able to get a job as a data entry person or anything, which would pay more than burger-flipping.
Mmmm...silence. It's so nice to be back in 'civilized country', where there isnt' the constant sound of traffic where we are. So nice, so relaxing. Meh, I can't type well today.
Oh! And they passed the same-sex marriage legislation! I'm so happy!!! xD My parents aren't, of course, but they can just suck. it. up. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Finally, the government did something good! Well, they could have done something good before, I just haven't been paying attention. Politics is usually boring. I can only read about people fighting over stupid stuff for so long.
must go, before dad comes over and reads this.
Stupid closet! It's so dark in here!
*gasp* I'm ALIIIVE!!!!
Mar. 25th, 2005 04:08 pmwell well well, guess who's finally updating their livejournal? Not
that much important stuff happened anyway, but it's a week till spring
break, so why not? Actually, i was supposed to be in the desert with my
'rents today, but it took me forever to do my homework so I got to stay
home. I got to miss Friday (church) service thingie today too, so it's
all good. I'll probably be dying of boredom before they come back, but
that's ok. I have free time! It's bloody amazing. I should be doing
something. I've got an 11-page math project to re-type up because I
lost my stupid floppy disk and I didn't save the updated version on my
computer. I feel so stupid, and I do NOT want to do it. Ach. This is a
record for losing floppies though, I think i've lost four this year
now, and one died a while ago. I have nothing else to say. I could talk
about the weather...let's see. Today it is sunny and warm. Yesterday it
was sunny and warm. Tomorrow it will be sunny and warm....next week it
will be sunnier and warmer...next year...ok, we get the point now.
