whee!

Oct. 8th, 2009 12:02 pm
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So the show last Thursday was awesome. There were lots of people there, and the numbers were wicked. So much fun! I decided not to go to Denny's afterward and go home instead.

Not much exciting is happening, really. I've been spending almost all of my free time doing schoolwork. Soul Patch isn't doing anything in the November show (because we need to do Thriller at Rocky Horror, which I'm probably not going to). Which means there aren't any drag practices to worry about. It's sort of good and yet the socializing was kind of nice too. Not being on the board is so liberating, though. No regrets there.

I went to go see Glenn yesterday for the first time in months. And it was really cool. I filled out a survey when I got there about what I wanted help with (ie housing, work, mental health stuff). And there's nothing, really. Even with being completely stressed out, I'm still managing to handle everything. A year ago I still wasn't doing that well, honestly, but now I'm fine.

Pretty cool, actually.

And I think transitioning has a lot to do with it. It's just this weight off of my mind:  I don't have to worry about whether I'll regret it or not, even though I think I always knew that it was something I wanted to do. I'm just so much happier now.

I lost my bus-pass today, which is annoying. Stupid bus-driver bitched at me for taking too long, too. Not a great start to the day. Meh. Hoping I can get a new student ID from school before the day's out. I really need to go run errands now.

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I've been sort of restless recently. Like, it's really hard to concentrate on things, especially the things I know I need to concentrate on (research papers). It's like having a head full of bees, only they're all on crack. It's hard to sleep, because my brain won't stop humming.
I'd blame the paint fumes, since they're probably responsible for my headache, but it's been like this for the past couple of days. Maybe it wasn't the smartest idea ever to go off my meds, but I wanted to see what happened. And now I have. Joy.
Going out tonight to LJ's post-wedding stagette. Hope I don't get there either ridiculously early or late. It would help if I knew what time most people are getting there. It should be fun, though. I think I need to take more classes next term. This whole having five days in a week to sit at home all by myself is sort of getting to me. I'll ignore the fact that more classes means more homework which means more stress.

...

yeah.
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Apparently my inner clock has decided that I sleep from three in the morning until one in the afternoon. And no matter how much I try to tell my body that no, that really doesn't work for me, I can't seem to get it to do otherwise. The only way I can sleep before one in the morning is if I take a sleeping pill or am drunk. And there's just something wrong with the fact that I have to drug myself to do what I used to do naturally. I'm really not looking forward to waking up tomorrow at eight.
I'll be out of my meds in three days. I'm going to have to ignore my terror of calling people and see if Dr. J can take me as a patient. Ugh. Don't want to think about that one too much.
Enough whining. I'm done my homework for the weekend. Whee! There's more I could do, but I'm lazy and it's not due until Tuesday so I'm not going to do it till Monday night. (yay procrastination). Now all I need to to is find my room under all that mess and then I'll be on my way to being ok. ish.
I broke up with Dom on Friday. I don't want to write about it. Or even think about it as much as possible. I know it's going to really suck once it sinks in that, yes, I have done this.
Till then, I distract myself.
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In other news, my brother is getting married. He proposed to his girlfriend on Christmas day and she accepted. (duh). They're going to be married this summer, and already the planning is starting with renting halls for the reception and getting marriage magazines. Craziness. I kind of want to avoid it as much as possible, thanks, though once it gets closer to the actual date I know I'm going to be dragged in to help. Though Dad said that I don't have to wear a dress or anything to the wedding, and that makes me feel a lot better.
First day of school today. Sculpture 101 or something. Seems like a good class, interesting teacher. One of my classmates (whom I know from Fibre and AHIS last term) is in both of my other classes, which is kind of cool. She's the cute, bubbly goth type and made a disemboweled rabbit for one of her projects. It was kind of cute. >.>
Anyway, it was good to get out of the house, I guess. The doctor put me on antidepressants, which will take a month to work, and told me to stop cutting NOW. He was really cool. I like him.
That's all for now, I guess.

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