happyfish

I'm completely in love with this weather. Srsly. Most of our windows are open during the warmest part of the day, and the cat spends many an hour gleefully running from window to window in order to smell the fresh air and drool over the birds singing in the trees.
Yesterday I decided it was too beautiful a day to spend completely indoors and went to the old field behind my house to see if anyone had dumped anything interesting there recently. I had absolutely no idea how much of a dumping zone it's become. You can't see it from the street; there's a hill in the way, but in this one spot there was just a crapload of junk and stuff that might not be junk to a creative mind. There were things like broken dishwashers, a bike with one wheel, two baby car chairs, a broken computer monitor and what looked like it once was a stereo system. I also found one of those cylindrical cat things covered in carpet that only needed to be cleaned a bit, and a broken, old-fashioned tv with a smashed screen. I'm totally going to gut the tv and then turn it into some sort of Great Work of Art. It makes me very happy.
Once I had finished my trek to the field, I had supper, changed into clothes that weren't splattered with mud, and then went to swing. It was pretty good. I managed to not completely suck, despite the fact that I haven't really gone since the fall. I know I've forgotten a lot, though, and that makes me sad. Robert showed up late from a wine-tasting or something and I managed to snag a dance with him before I ran for the bus. It was a good dance, too. :) I still have this huge crush on him. *sigh*
Reading week is almost over. I should probably study/do more homework. I find that my mind's been going in a million directions at once, mostly thinking about art projects I could do, so it's hard to do more practical things. Still, I really ought to start my research papers. Ugh. I'd rather go out into the shed and take apart my tv.

Ever notice, when you want something really badly (you can almost taste it), that you don't want it once you actually have it? Seriously. Like cinnamon buns. Sweet, gooey and all that wonderfulness. I so wanted one the other day when I went shopping. Then I thought about it, and realized that I just wanted to want one, if that makes any sense.
Also kind of like my crush on Rob, which I am really enjoying, by the way. But I don't really want him to like me back, that wouldn't be as fun. And anyway, if he even started to act like he did, I'd scream and run away like, like a scared rabbit. That is, ultimately, the number one reason on my list of Why I Will Never Be Romantically Involved With Anyone. Not the desire thing, the scared rabbit one.
It's okay, I'll have my cats! Eheh. *cries*

Yay! I went swing dancing yesterday. It was really fun. Well, I mean it always looked like it would be uber fun anyway, and now I know that it is. It felt really weird being sort of held by a guy. I haven't really had much human contact in a while, other than the odd hug from Caro. I did get used to it, though. Except for the sweaty guy. He was a good dancer and all, but man! he was dripping! Ew!
And I finally met one of Caro's crushes. Rob, aka the-guy-who-looks-good-in-argile. He kind of looks like Ioan Grufford (or whatever). And he looks...nice. I don't know. There's something about his face that's like open and friendly or something. I wonder what his dæmon would be...
I suspect he might be a trifle gay, but then again so does Caro. There were a few other guys there that I'm sure are completely gay. I don't remember their names.
I just realized (about a week or so ago) that I have changed. A lot. I'm more confident and self-assured and I care less about what other people think of me. I have no idea what started this change, probably a mix of saudi, living on my own, and finding my dæmon. Because I would never even consider thinking about dressing up like a pirate and doing the Jack sparrow walk in public before. Ah, but it was so much fun! And now I want to do it when it's not Halloween so people can stare at me more. Yes, I'm a little crazy, but it's in a good way. Maybe I just got tired of trying to be invisible in Saudi. Meh. Whatever. [/self-analysis]
Oh, and it snowed again last night. Good thing I didn't go out at all today.
Alex and I are getting together again next weekend. I hope he doesn't consider this a date. He says he just wants to talk (and watch movies)...but...*shrug*