happyfish: (Car)
School is finished for the summer! Whoo!

I'm not used to having free time, really. I mean, I have personal research projects that I want to do, like continuing my experiments with stop-motion or actually learning how to take halfway decent pictures. But there's no real pressure. It's not something I have to finish within two weeks or anything. I can actually relax. It's crazy.

Went to the Comic Expo on the weekend. Saturday was insane. So many people, and yet I only ran into a couple people that I knew. I ended up bailing pretty quickly once the crowds got too bad. I went back yesterday again, and it was much calmer. Even got Leonard Nimoy to sign something for me! It was wicked. There were a lot more people that I knew that day, so it was more fun than me just wandering about looking at stuff trying not to feel lonely. Also ran into another Serenity Rose fan! Pretty much the only other fan I've seen. We had a semi-awkward conversation. It was amusing.

I dunno. I've been feeling down lately. I know it's likely all the stress from the last month, and everything. Sometimes it's hard to hang about my big empty house with no room-mate to talk to, and no homework to distract me. Stuff about Dom is coming up again, and although it's not nearly as bad as before, it's still annoying and hard to deal with. I just want to move on with my life, kthnx?
happyfish: (Screaming Owen)
Fuck it.


Mar. 17th, 2010 11:19 pm
happyfish: (More Sex than Me)
I'm this strange combination of lonely and irritable. I want to be around people, and held, and yet being around people annoys me. Maybe it's just because I went to a pub after practice tonight, and was thus surrounded by a large number of loud, drunk people. Maybe it's because I'm getting over a week of being in a hermit-funk. Seriously, if I had no other obligations for all of last week I'd just stay home - do homework or watch Doctor Who. I think I finished season three just in a week.

I don't feel as stressed out as I did when the parents were here though. Which is good. Trevor's living with me now. He came over tonight, and moving all the rest of his stuff in Saturday. It sort of happened quickly. He asked yesterday, but it's not like I can say no. I know he's been going through a tough time right now, and having a room of his own and space of his own will doubtless help him get better.

I wish it were spring. Really spring, with green grass and flowers. I'm so sick of living in a brown, dust-covered city.

Fuck I need to get laid.
happyfish: (jack slash ianto)
Holy crap, haven't updated this in ever.

I still think it's somewhat amusing that my first thought upon hearing that my niece was born with a bunch of red hair was 'Red will be pleased.' I've seen her once since she was born and she is so cute! I'm still trying to get my head around the fact that my brother has a kid, although I'm sure he'll be a brilliant dad.

My parents came back for a couple weeks to see the baby, even though she was late, and left again last Friday. I've never had them around in the middle of the semester, and it was weird. Difficult to get everything done for midterms when I'm suddenly rearranging my life around other people. Not that it was all bad. They gave me rides home from work, and once I got sick started bringing me tea trays and such. And they were pretty good about understanding that I don't like worship music and therefore not playing it around me. Course, maybe they just find that having me glowering in a corner is really non-conducive to worshiping, but you know. It works.

I've been pretty stressed out, recently. I used to have a list in my head off all the things that I was worried about, but I can't remember it anymore. Which is probably a good thing. Having the parents gone again helps a lot. And getting all of that extra sleep after falling sick also helped. Still sort of worried about Trevor, though, 'cause we were supposed to have a talk about all the shit that's going down in his life. But there hasn't been time.

Had my birthday party on Saturday. Actually, it was the weekend of birthday parties. Sherina's birthday was on Friday. Trev flew her mom in secretly on Thursday night, which was kind of the best thing ever. A group of us went to Denny's after the show, and kept Sherina facing away from the door and completely in the dark about what we were planning. I think we almost had her half-convinced that we were actually planning an orgy. She jumped so much when her mom snuck up behind her. It was great! Then I think she started crying, and Christine got it all on video, because we're sensitive friends like that.

Anyway, so Sherina had her party on Friday. We went bowling, which was awesome. Even though I had to wear women's shoes in a size five, which was sort of awful. Stupid small feet. But I didn't suck as badly as I thought I would, and actually beat Sherina's score on the second game. *gloats* Then we went back to Lyn's house to play pictionary and not get drunk.

Since Alice in Wonderland came out that weekend, obviously we had to go for my party, and obviously we had to go in costume. I didn't actually expect almost everyone to show up in costume, and awesome costumes at that. There were a lot of bemused people at the theatre, who snuck pictures when they thought we weren't looking. I was the Cheshire Cat, because I could just sort of throw it together out of stuff I had, grin really big and scare small children. Or Trevor. Same difference. Chawna and Justine dressed up as Tweedledee and Tweedledum, with corsets and spinny hats, and I think they were my favourites of the night. Especially when they found out they could make the propeller on the hats spin by running back and forth flailing their arms. XD

It was a good weekend. It's been hard trying to get back into the spin of things. Especially 'cause I had a fever off and on from Wednesday till yesterday. I missed two days of school, but think it's pretty much gone now. Just got a sore throat, which is annoying, but at least manageable.

Anyways, off to do productive things.
happyfish: (Car)
Really stressed out, to the point where I think I'm starting to get sick. Bugger. I don't have time for this.

Going to see the new niece tonight, if I don't decide to stay home for the sake of not making her sick.
happyfish: (Winter)
Life's been crazy. In good and bad ways. I'd say more, but I'm just too exhausted right now. The only reason I'm online right now and not sleeping is because I haven't finished my tea yet.

So here's a meme:

Look back at your entries for the year and take the first sentence of each month to sum it all up!


So my parents left about half an hour ago.


Rocky Horror was fun.


I think I'm finally starting to get stressed out about everything.


So I inadvertently locked the cat in the crawlspace all night because I didn't hear her go in, and didn't think to leave the door open anyway.


Life's been pretty quiet recently.


The Vancouver trip was awesome.


Mom came back a week ago.


I still find it rather amusing that less than a week before Dad came home, two of our appliances decided to stop working.


So my parents are gone now.


So the show last Thursday was awesome.


I'm so busy I should probably cry.


Omg, I think I have a date.

Yup. Interesting? My life revolves around school, complaining about my parents, and my friends, apparently.
happyfish: (Screaming Owen)
  • I'm so busy I should probably cry. Just for the de-stressing impact that it would have.
  • I have a table full of glittery tentacles behind me, which I will soon add rhinestone 'suckers' to. For school. And it will probably take me all night.
  • Cuttlefish casting = WIN. I made a tiny silver tree, and now I want to make MORE tiny silver trees so I can have a tiny silver tree forest. Because it will be awesome.
  • I might possibly get my hollow construction ring done by the end of term.
  • Trevor is coming to Calgary! And staying at my house! Which will hopefully be clean and full of food when he gets here. *crosses fingers*
  • Yeah, that's it. Oh wait -
  • I need to get laid. srsly.


Oct. 8th, 2009 12:02 pm
happyfish: (Fall)
So the show last Thursday was awesome. There were lots of people there, and the numbers were wicked. So much fun! I decided not to go to Denny's afterward and go home instead.

Not much exciting is happening, really. I've been spending almost all of my free time doing schoolwork. Soul Patch isn't doing anything in the November show (because we need to do Thriller at Rocky Horror, which I'm probably not going to). Which means there aren't any drag practices to worry about. It's sort of good and yet the socializing was kind of nice too. Not being on the board is so liberating, though. No regrets there.

I went to go see Glenn yesterday for the first time in months. And it was really cool. I filled out a survey when I got there about what I wanted help with (ie housing, work, mental health stuff). And there's nothing, really. Even with being completely stressed out, I'm still managing to handle everything. A year ago I still wasn't doing that well, honestly, but now I'm fine.

Pretty cool, actually.

And I think transitioning has a lot to do with it. It's just this weight off of my mind:  I don't have to worry about whether I'll regret it or not, even though I think I always knew that it was something I wanted to do. I'm just so much happier now.

I lost my bus-pass today, which is annoying. Stupid bus-driver bitched at me for taking too long, too. Not a great start to the day. Meh. Hoping I can get a new student ID from school before the day's out. I really need to go run errands now.


Sep. 24th, 2009 05:37 pm
happyfish: (Screaming Violet)
Just emailed Sarabeth to tell her there's probably no way that I'll be able to get my soldering samples done by next class. Which is true. I feel sort of relieved and yet guilty at the same time. It's just - I have to do 110 drawings by next Monday. 100 of those were due last Monday. If I go to school tonight to work on my jewellery stuff, I won't have time to finish the projects for a class I'm already behind in.

I don't know if there's really anything I can do. I'd go cry in a corner, but that doesn't seem productive.

In other, completely different news, apparently I'm seeing two people at once now. Who knew? It's kind of weird because a month ago I was single and then within two weeks suddenly I'm very, very not. Though, did it really have to happen in the middle of school/work-stress, and not in the middle of summer when i had nothing else to do? Not that I'm really complaining. I'm too happy. XD

Need to make supper. I'm super hungry.
happyfish: (Focus)
I think I'm finally starting to get stressed out about everything. March is the month of craziness (especially in terms of weather. Excuse me whilst I look out the windows and sigh.) I've got a bunch of major projects due, including the AHIS Paper of Dooom, and then a handful of extra drag shows that I'm not all entirely certain I want to perform in. I know I've promised Trev I'd perform at the Mount Royal Gender Bender, and I'd like to help out with all the fundraisers for Laramie. But I might end up helping out by showing up and giving my money instead of going crazy trying to figure out which numbers to do and then somehow find time to practice them.

I've still barely started the research for the Paper of Dooom.

My birthday party is this Saturday as well. Trying to get everything ready for that is interesting. The house is mostly clean, and I'm pretty sure I'm staying home to clean and research Friday night instead of doing other things. Cleaning might de-stress me. One can always hope.

I don't know. There's lots of stuff going on, just nothing I really feel like writing about.

I really need to get better at talking to people.

happyfish: (grr argh)
+ Finished my Modernisms paper and handed it in on time.
+ Got a new bus pass.
+ Did well on my presentation for FBRE212.
+ Had an awesome time at the second Art Thing. Drank lots of tea.
- Called Dr. J today to try and book an appointment, only to be told that I'd have to go in when he does his walk-ins, 'cause I'm not considered one of his patients.
- Cried after I hung up because I hate phones and looking/sounding like an idiot.
- Didn't go grocery shopping until after seven because I was recovering from the phone call.
- Missed my bus, and decided to walk instead of wait because it was so fucking cold.
+ Bought soy ice cream sandwiches. Which are yummy. :P
+ Have milk and bread again, and food to eat that isn't stew or porridge.
- Haven't started my English paper yet, and I really want to go to the Art Thing tomorrow night instead of working on it.
- Still haven't shoveled the sidewalk.
happyfish: (Vincent)
  • write AHIS midterm paper
  • begin research for AHIS term paper
  • reread 'The Yellow Wallpaper'
  • email Chris about second English assignment
  • create FBRE presentation
  • finish survival garment
  • begin brainstorming Wunderkammern (or however you spell it) project ideas
  • read MYN bylaws
  • practice for FM
  • return library books
  • go grocery shopping
  • look into Show and Sale?
  • get a new student ID card
I'm also hanging with Kait on Thursday (glee), and I want to drag Trevor to a movie or something. Perhaps Coraline. We'll see. It looks interesting, and I'm always a fan of stop-motion animation.

The next couple of months are going to be insane.


Feb. 13th, 2009 11:21 am
happyfish: (Default)
I can't find my bus pass. If I want to get to class on time, I should be leaving now, but I don't have enough money to get there and back. I had it freaking yesterday, but I can't find it anywhere.




Dec. 5th, 2008 12:56 am
happyfish: (jeronimo)
In 2008, happy_fish_87 resolves to...
Pay for my birls on time.
Keep my x-men clean.
Volunteer to spend time with trees.
Give some colours to charity.
Give up painting.
Eat more comics.

Get your own New Year's Resolutions:

Also, we handed in our ACAD200 project yesterday, and I had the final crit for PRNT today. Two out of three final projects are done. Completely. And I never have to think of them again. Well, I have to take pictures of my prints, which I may just do at home unless i can get someone who knows how to actually use a camera to take pictures of them (Lacy I will make you cookies if you feel up to it. Seriously, I totally will.) Fake Mustache was tonight, which I managed to survive thanks to excessive amounts of caffeine. I dragged (pun intended) Em to the show, her first since the spring, and it was totally awesome. I keep forgetting how well Em and I seem to click.
I get to sleep in tomorrow. It makes me rather happy. Then Chrysalis, where I get to cover myself in rainbow paint.
happyfish: (Yay)
Decided against the ten-colour print. Because that's just sort of like shooting myself in the foot. I'm staying home for a bit today to try and figure out what I'm doing for it now. I'm sure Tracy will be glad to note that the top-hatted venus-fly-trap is somewhere on my list of potential images.

If I'd thought of this last night and not this morning after I had my coffee I'd still be asleep. Still, this is the best thing that's happened all week. As soon as my caffeine wears down enough, I'm freaking going back to bed.

um. fuck?

Nov. 26th, 2008 04:14 pm
happyfish: (Screaming Violet)
  1. One week in order to assemble the written portion of my final ACAD200 project.
  2. Eight days until my final print is due. Ten colours, and I have to re-do the emulsion because I did my positives wrong.
  3. Twelve days to finish my weaving. All three of them. And my compu-dobby piece.
  4. Chrysalis every Friday from now until the 12th of December.
  5. Misc Youth is having their AGM this Saturday. I was going to work on school stuff, hoping that the silk-screening studio would be open. Instead I get to sit around for hours and watch drama unfold.

And I wonder why I have troubles sleeping?

oh gods. Two weeks left. But I have to survive them in order to rest afterwards.

Anyway, off to go re-emulsify my screen.
happyfish: (Winter)
I FINALLY have an idea for my final silk-screening project. Joys. One that I might actually like when I'm done, but we'll see. It's my final chance to prove (to myself, mostly) that I can actually register when I make the effort. So I need to make the effort.

Had a pretty relaxing day, today. I managed to get quite a few things done, although mostly not for school. Still, I'm mostly prepared for the pitch tomorrow for ACAD200. All I have to do is write the conclusion of the pitch (which is the part I'm doing) and then remember what I wrote. It shouldn't be hard. We've talked so much about this project and what our goals are and what the vision of our corporation is that I'm not really afraid of forgetting what I'm talking about. I'm just glad I'm not answering questions.

Then comes the paperwork. I don't even know when we'll have time to meet again this week, as a group. I have things I'm doing every night from Wednesday to Friday, and then it's the Show and Sale. I don't know if any of the group is going to want to meet then. We'll see. Thursday night I'm hanging out with Kait, which is super awesome exciting. xD Friday is Chrysalis, and bowling.

Three weeks till the end of term. I know what all my final projects are and what I need to do for them (in theory, at least). Four weeks until my parents come home. Mom keeps asking me if I want to invite friends over for Christmas dinner. I don't know how to explain to her that the last time I brought friends over for dinner, it was so awkward we had to go and get drunk afterwards. She didn't think it was awkward. She just thought I was being rude because I didn't want Trevor and Connor to see my high school pictures. Oh parents.

Had a yogurt today, and then my stomach started hurting. I've mostly written off feeling sick as anxiety. But...I dunno. Maybe it's something I'm eating. Worth thinking about anyway. At least, if it's something I'm eating, I can just STOP eating whatever it is. Anxiety I just have to wait out, and it's sucky.

I should get back to work. Just waiting for the water to boil so I can make tea.


Nov. 14th, 2008 04:07 pm
happyfish: (Vincent)
My ACAD200 project is going to be the death of me. *flail* I'm starting to get this really doomed feeling that we are aiming too high and trying too much in the time that we have. I swear we could be planning this thing for years and still not have everything ready.

Ah well.

I really just hope we don't have to write bylaws.

And I think I might stare in awe at Kait for a bit tonight, now that I have the briefest glimpse of how much fucking work it is to start a not-for-profit organization. Although I daresay she had longer than three weeks in which to do it all.


Nov. 13th, 2008 04:14 pm
happyfish: (allo)
I've done nothing productive this afternoon. It's been so freaking nice. The last couple of days, every time I tried to relax for a bit my brain would start spewing lists of what I still needed to do. I'm back to eating like a normal person again.

*takes a deep breath*

So freaking nice.

I was up till two this morning finishing my silk-screening project. Pictures to come, maybe. I'm pretty proud of it, despite the fact that I was half-awake when finishing it off, and there's probably a lot of things I could have done better. Hammers and one o'clock in the morning DON'T mix, though. In case you were wondering. The class seemed to like it too. There were a lot of suggestions for improvement, but with the 'if you had more time and a thousand dollars' kind of thing added at the end. It was kind of the best critique I've ever had. I think I may have actually learned something. *gasp*

Although I still don't like this one girl's prints. At all. And everyone else seems to completely love them, which is rather painful. The comment 'I kind of want to punch your print in the face as soon as I see it' isn't very constructive, so I didn't say much when everyone was ranting about how awesome the stupid thing was. Augh.

My final ACAD200 project scares the crap out of me. It's so big and complicated and oh my god I've only got a week. We're having group meetings almost every day for the next week because we've still got so much to do, yet. We only decided last night to be not-for-profit. I should be working on it now, but I really don't want to.

Got two letters in the mail today! Hurrah. One from Kait and one from Sasha. They made me smile. I love getting letters. Plus Jen promised to answer any letter I sent her, so there should be another one coming soon/eventually.

Life is good.

happyfish: (Vincent)

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a very natural, real person. You're comfortable with who you are - and your spirit truly shines through.

You are free of inhibitions and hang ups. Because of this freedom, you tend to be very creative.

Your inner demon is greed. You can't help but lust after wealth and shiny objects.

People think you're cute because you are so lively. Your natural glow makes you charming.

In other news, I'm so stressed out I can barely eat. My stomach hurts for no reason at all sometimes, and I just seem to have no appetite.

I'm just waiting for people to start nagging about how I'm too skinny to stop eating. I'd like to eat, but I just can't. Anyway, I don't want to stress out too much about it on top of everything else.

Brenda's staying with me for a couple days to get some stuff done. Totally forgot she was coming today. It's nice to have someone else here.


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